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CONFESSIONS OF A WIFE
MARY'S LETTER CONTINUED.
As I could not sleep after Dick left
me, so I turned to Mary's letter again.
"Margie, I'm afraid was the last
sentence I had read before-Dick came
"You may think it strange to be
afraid of loving. But -when one has
had such an unhappy time as I had
with Jack one must be afraid to try
"I am really quite happy now.
Thanks to dear Aunt Mary and some
splendid business deals I have made
in old books, I am very independent,
and whether I would be as happy
even with Max Pendleton as I am now
if I should marry him is a question
I am trying to decide.
"Anyone would know from that
last sentence, Margie, that I had 'put
youth behind me,' for what woman
under 30, in love as I am, would stop
to consider whether she would be
happier in the long run with or with
out the man she was in love with.
"Max is an ideal lover, the sweet
est tenderest man I have ever known.
"I am beginning to shrink from the
idea of the 'cave man.' I don't want
that kind of love any more.
"Max's very compliments are more
in the carressing way he says them
than in the words themselves.
"I have been buying many pretty
gowns in Paris. You know I never
before had enough to indulge my
taste in that direction. Max has been
with me on many a shopping expedi
tion and his new pet name for me is
"Do you remember, Margie, the old
song: 'It is not so much what he
says, but the nasty ways he says it'
I have changed it to: 'It is not so
much what he says, but the dearest
way he says it.'
"He does not talk much, Margie.
He lets me bubble over with en
thusiasm, and often only by the most
engaging smile in the world does he
tell me that he is interested.
"But when I ask his advice or help
I get it always. It is as though I put
out my hand only to find another
warm hand seeking mine.
"He has made things in a business
way very easy for me in Paris, intro
ducing me to the right people in the
right way. You know he is much in
terested in books, and has one of the
finest libraries in the United States.
I have been able to make some won
derful deals in consequence. Of
course, he wants me to marry him,
but, as you know, he is a few years
younger than I does that matter?
And I have had such terrible luck in
turning one devoted lover into a hus
band that I am rather dubious about .
repeating the experiment
"You will probably be thinking by
this time that I don't love him that
if I did I would not be questioning
my heart. Yes I do; at least I love
love in him.
"Do you know that I am now sure
that what a man looks for in love is
woman and what a woman loos for.
in man is love. That may be a little
obscure, but because you are a wom
an and because you have loved you
will understand it
"I am very miserable when I try to
decide what I shall do and very very
happywhen we are together.
"It is spring in Paris, you know,
and that is almost heaven.
"I expect in the end I'll marry him
and perhaps regret it ever after.
"Tell me about yourself, dear. Have
you heard from Mollie since she was
married? How is Mrs. Waverly
stanomg the separation, and how are
all our friends? If any of them ask
for me, tell them that I am well. For
your eye alone I am writing this, how
ever, that I am very happy most of
"Think of me and love me, dear,
for I love you always. Mary."
I wonder, little book, what she will
say when she gets my letter telling