The Adak sun., May 26, 1958, Page 5, Image 5

About The Adak sun. (Adak, Alaska) 1955-1976

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—From A Diary Of Darkness—
\ By Kel Williams
j Dear Diary, ,v ■ ■ • ‘ \ \
"many times I laid awake at night and]
j dreamed of fame* Little did'I know that|
| this moment I would be on a fast Holly-j
wood bound train with the hope of film-|
land fame within the year* When I ar
rive I*11 probably be met by the leading
producer of Surmounta Studios. Now, as
I write in mfc diary, I wonder whether
I’ll be laughing ten years from now when]
I read what I’m writing today* I could]
be crying as well as laughing* I guess!
that would depend on what I make of my
j acting career» As I look from the win-I
^dows of this train, I can literally see j
: my past fading back to misty memories ofj
j mfe youth. All behind me, I have nothing:
I but the future. This shall be my pre-j
j lude to success. I hope®”
”1 hope the next time I look'uponj
] this page of this diary I’ am a success,\
j IF>11 probably laugh at all this melo~j
I dramatic stuff I’m writing now, But ifj
j I ?m successful. It’ll be worth it. The\
| laughing I mean. Even this very minute
1 I have a sudden fear I will never reach
| Hollywood alive. That’s a strange feel
Ling to have but I have it now, I guess
! it’s all due to nerves, Now I have an
| other creeping feeling of failure, It
^scares me to think of failure, Thats my
Wweakness, I guess, Failure I Now I have
j the feeling that I will know poverty and
S poverty will know me.”
"Still, I have the letter in my hand\
j, from- Sam Gasshouse the big producer's, I j
I guess he knows what he’s doing. I sure:
j don’t, I wonder what the people at homes
i are going to think of me when they see j
| my picture on the screen of the ’old:
j Orpheum theatre’? I bet they won’t even!
i recoginize me, Who cares! I guess I doj
| care about Nellie though. My Nellie, ij
j wonder what her husband will think when
| she says, ’lets go see his motde, I used
j to go with himry Well she can have her
j husband, I’ll take Hollywood any day,
I remember the day I told her mother I
wouldn’t be back until they welcomed mej
j back with a homecoming and big parades«1
| (Gon’t top of next Col,)
.1
Well maybe it will all come true. Then;
what will they think? I wonder if I’ll;
really be a popular actor-, Maybe 1*11 be;
another Valentino or a new type of lover;
who can tell. I don’t think I’ll be able-;
to wait until' this train gets to Holly-j
weed« I am nervous• Kinda shaky all =
over.Feel a sharp pain in my right side,^
kinda easing slowly unward, Hope itj
ain’t apnendicatis* I’d hate to have a?
big scar on my belly* Wonder what the
critics will say about my first movieo\
I hope my friends don’t laugh at me, Ij
couldn't stand it. Those bumbs, Whyj
did I ever call them friends. All they}
ever did was try to discourage me from;
becoming an actor. I wonder why I amj
Degmning to ieei so depressed? jl ieei
awful dizzy.The pain is becoming slight
ly worse. I think I’ll go see the doc
tor when I get to Hollywood. . . Brother
I’m sick. If I’m a failure Nellie will
laugh at me* I’d as soon die as have her
laugh at me. Oh man, that would be worse
than death* Some how I feel like I’ve
just written and obituary instead of an
entry in my diary. I hope. . . . .
’’Here RalphJ,’ said Sam Gasshouse,
’’this must have been the last thing he
did”. ”Yeah, I read it. He was a nat
ural. Did you read the page about the
first date with that girl called NellieV
’’Man that guy was emotional, I bet he
would have been another Valentino, maybe
even something new for filmland. To bad,
guess we all have to die for one reason
or another.
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Monday T. 26 May 195 8
MOVIE: 1400-1800-2015 ’’THE TRUE STORY
OP"1 LYNN STUART” with Betsy Palmer and
Jack Lord. California© Attorney General
says, .’This picture is an almost unbel
ievable true story’”.
DANCE TIME*##*.**
Aleutianiers Band Schedule for week \
ending May 31*
Friday, 30 May- ’’CIVILIAN CLUB’’ ?
Saturday,31 May- ”HAMMERHEAD LODGE”
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